Since I was 5 years old, I have been nothing but a student. I have known no other life. Go to school, come home, do your homework, go to bed, and do it all over again the next day. I have known the agony of tests, finals, and pop quizzes. I have thrived on new and interesting subjects. For the past 16 years, I have been required to do nothing but learn. Today that is no longer the case.

Today is was my first day in what they like to call ” the real world”. After 7 years in elementary school, 3 years in Jr. high, 3 years  in high school, and 9 of the most ridiculous, outrageous and dramatic quarters of my life I have earned my Associates of Applied Science. I though Bates Technical College was going to be the death of me, but I have achieved a goal that i thought I never thought possible.

Right now, I’m not really sure what to do with myself. It feels so surreal and so fake. I guess it won’t really hit me until I have worked a few months at 40hrs a week. No more cutting off early or showing up late. It’s going to be different but I am excited. I will be continuing to work at Weyerhasuer as a contractor which is an amazing opportunity, although it may not be as exciting as a full time Weyerhaeuser employee, I’ll take what I can get. At this point I’m the only one from my class with a job.

All in all, it feels pretty good. John seems to think it’s a bigger deal than I do. He took me out for a special dinner last night to celebrate my accomplishment. He is really excited for me to start working, he keeps calling me his “Sugar Momma”. Maybe he thinks my paycheck is bigger than it is

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BEWARE OF ME YOU GOOD CHRISTIAN PEOPLE FOR I AM THE ULTIMATE SINNER, I MIGHT AS WELL BE THE ANTI CHRIST!

Someone today felt it necessary to send me this video. As I watched it I suddenly realized that I am going to go to hell for living the life I’m living. Before I explain you must see the video:

Now, I guess I didn’t realize that being a “Good Christian” and having a “relationship with Jesus” meant that I need to resort back to the times without women’s rights or advanced technology. I didn’t realize that the simple acts of enjoy T.V. and sports were a one way ticket to hell. I didn’t realize that it is not MY place as a WOMAN to work. That it is my duty to be a slave for my husband, raise his children by myself, and have sex with him every night to get the chance to heaven. I didn’t know that by me knowing and wanting to know the things that happen in my community, state, county and world that I was sinning. I also wasn’t aware that making something of yourself and having nice things was such a terrible thing. I didn’t know that if you were successful, happy, working, listening to the radio, reading the news, going to sports games, using the internet, watching T.V., and getting junk mail were all things brought on by the DEVIL HIMSELF and by doing these things, it automaticlly means that I have no realtionship with my God.

Sometimes I really just can’t believe what people are trying to turn religion and Faith into. It really breaks my heart.